So I realized I hadn't blogged in quite some time (although I feel somewhat justified in the fact that I had part-time work to put ahead of everything else). I also haven't been exercising or taking care of my health either. Unfortunately this resulted in a verbal boot in the ass from one of my doctors. This week I've been journaling what I eat, and hopefully will get back into the exercise habit. As for blogging? I've been trying to think creatively, and finally thought of something that might help me out in a number of ways. I thought I'd write a letter to myself, because I'm not content with my life and what's happening in it. So here goes:
There are several things you need to remember as you move forward in life. First of all, stay out of the past. Yes, you can learn from your mistakes but, for the most part, AVOID IT. Secondly, question your habits. Understand yourself better. What are you afraid of learning about you? Third, each day is a new day so make it your best yet. Is it a long road ahead for you, physically? Of course it is, and yes, it's going to get hard. It's going to be frustrating. There is always a possibility of failure in attaining your goals. But you're afraid of success and being able to handle it well.
Try to remember what it felt like when you played softball, and how you succeeded in some high-pressure situations. It was exhilarating - because you allowed yourself to be you, and you were constantly working to be the best. For some reason, when you gave up softball, you gave up ambition. You need to find that again or you're not going to find any sort of peace and happiness in your life.
Finally, you are smart, you're funny and not nearly as unattractive as you think you are.